It’s been a minute since I’ve been able to come on here and write. My pregnancy was hard, complicated by PTSD, exhaustion, weight gain, and last-minute changes. The last time I updated, I was about…
To understand this story, you need to go all the way back to 2020. I was pregnant with our fourth baby, a little girl named Ellie, and I was miserable. And not just because there was a global pandemic going…
My story tends to intimidate some people. They seem to think that their hard can’t possibly compare to mine. They haven’t had a miscarriage. They haven’t had to struggle with infertility. They haven’…
When things go wrong in our lives, we are quick to think that God has abandoned us. Or that we are being punished in some way. Or we think that these things shouldn’t be happening to us because…
“I’m so sorry but your baby has no amniotic fluid. I don’t think he has any kidneys.” When I was a little girl, I dreamed of being a mama. I carried my baby dolls with me everywhere I…
Grief is hard and it’s isolating and it’s lonely. I can’t count the number of times I have broken down simply because I feel alone in my grief and I feel forgotten. And Judah feels forgotten…
While I try to answer questions about Judah and our story as well as I can, sometimes, the answer is long and complicated or I just don’t have the mental energy to answer them because the answer is painful…